GOOD BYE!
My friend is leaving for New York today.He is shipping out for three months and I don't think this could have come at a better time. Sure I'll miss him but I'll hopefully move on from the drunken stupor I have been living in. I really thought what we had would grow into something.
I talked to him last night and it was as if our "friendship" meant nothing to him. He talked about how much he hated the U.S and that he'd like to move to South America. He said all his friends were either getting married or moving away and that he felt abondoned by them.
All I could think about was "I really mean nothing to this guy." He wasn't saying that he'd miss me.Why am I the girl guys run too when they need to talk or have a good laugh? Why can't I be the one they want to date?
I just wished I'd not given him my number the night I met him. I know that I wouldn't have enjoyed the time I spent with him but it would have been okay. The saying ,'It's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all" doesn't make sense to me. Granted I didn't fall in love with 'my friend' however, I grew very fond of him and to me not having known him at all would have been much better than the feeling I have right now. But then again,this is the story of my life.
My friend is leaving for New York today.He is shipping out for three months and I don't think this could have come at a better time. Sure I'll miss him but I'll hopefully move on from the drunken stupor I have been living in. I really thought what we had would grow into something.
I talked to him last night and it was as if our "friendship" meant nothing to him. He talked about how much he hated the U.S and that he'd like to move to South America. He said all his friends were either getting married or moving away and that he felt abondoned by them.
All I could think about was "I really mean nothing to this guy." He wasn't saying that he'd miss me.Why am I the girl guys run too when they need to talk or have a good laugh? Why can't I be the one they want to date?
I just wished I'd not given him my number the night I met him. I know that I wouldn't have enjoyed the time I spent with him but it would have been okay. The saying ,'It's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all" doesn't make sense to me. Granted I didn't fall in love with 'my friend' however, I grew very fond of him and to me not having known him at all would have been much better than the feeling I have right now. But then again,this is the story of my life.
posted by singleinboston at 9:57 AM
2 Comments:
Ohhh man, that is kind of a weird situation. I've been in one somewhat similar...the good thing is you have some distance to clear your head, and you never know, you might be in contact again. Try not to assume you will or won't, just let it happen.
I know, easier said than done.
It is very strange that he's not saying he'll miss you...unfortunately, it sounds like you were there for him, but he was only there for you if he wanted it. I do know this is very one-sided, so it's just my observation.
Like I said, it's an odd place to be...you're not "in love", but it's not necessarily just losing a friend either. Believe it or not, you have (or will) learn from this and move on. That's what makes you 'you.' not so much fun to go through, but it does shape you and even helps you in your future relationships, romantic or not.
i'm sorry about your situation. i'm really sorry i can't help. but do take care. life is young and the sea out there, is full of fish :)
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